January 10 ; Close of 2nd Month

8 weeks,16 blister packs, and 112 pills down. 4 Months to go.

It's not until about 1 week ago that I started seeing changes in my skin.

But when it began to happen, it happened fast. And I really had myself convinced for a few weeks there that it wasn't happening.

When I wash my face now it's smooth. I still have a couple of issues, a couple of pop up lovelies. Like this one on my cheek that just formed last night.

But instead of before where a zit would creep on into my life, one will begin and quickly go away.

My lower jowels are becoming pimple free.

I had a thought today that this must be what people who don't suffer from acne feel like : out of sight out of mind.

It's not there for 1 week and already I'm not resulting to my usual annie acne OCD behavior:

Repeatedly checking the rearview mirror to see how bad my patch of pimples looks, keeping a compact on hand at all times for spot checks, touching my face, diverting my eyes if a mirror is around.

Today I even went out in public with no makeup on and didn't think twice about people looking at me trying to play connect the dots.

I didn't think about it until I went to wash my face and realized I didn't have anything to wash away.

I did for 1 second feel a little self conscious in Sports Authority when I was browsing the womens organic workout clothes section. Yes, they have one. Yes, I bought a shirt there for my Marathon next Sunday. Yes, I'll probably smell like bamboo and rice patties.

All the 'healthy' women with glowing complexions around me- no makeup, no big pores and pimples. Do they think I'm unhealthy because my skin looks worn and wrecked?

Getting rid of the acne is step 1 for me, then 6 months before I can do laser treatments to make my skin look a bit youthful again. It deserves a damn break after this pill poppin' hell it's going through right now.

We've got a long way to go.