What's that saying again, "If you want to make God laugh tell him your plans"?
3 days after I was set to begin Accutane I found myself alone, with a dead blackberry, in a hotel room far from home. Pill-less. And 2 days off my daily dose of antibiotics .
Instead of trying my new prescription on for size I was deciding between washing my face with water or a paper wrapped bar of soap with a cartoon bear on the wrapper.
Will it make me break out? Unclear.
3 days of work for me would have me:
A. More stressed than I've been in months
B. on TV doing live shots for other stations in other big cities- LA, Sacramento, and Dallas.
C. on a diet consisting mostly soda and a Pizza Hut delivery.
This isn't exactly the equation for skin-so-good it belongs in an Aveeno ad.
Work took me straight from the station to Killean Texas on assignment.
4 Hours NorthWest of Houston.
News broke there, so off I went. No time to plan my acne regiment for the next 3 days let alone how I was gonna score a clean pair of underpants.
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I think you can be so proud of yourself for writing about this issue and working to be your authentic self even in the face of possibly your greatest insecurity. I know these sound like empty words but the pictures don't seem as bad as how you express that you feel about all of this. And, so who really thinks that tv personalities have it all together? No one does. Because you said something along these lines, I wonder if you have expectations of who you should be or how you should perform according to someone else's idea. Are you trying to live up to someone else's expectations and is this causing you stress? Would talking to a psychologist or such help?
ReplyDeleteI know how frustrating it is to express myself in a post or such and have someone respond who clearly missed my point or replies in such a 'pat answer' way that it is no help at all. So, if this is what I've done...sorry.
I am a firm believer in the concept that at the very core of any emotional/physical issue is 'how am I at odds with who I am'. And, from my perspective, who anyone really is is outstanding but people keep trying to fit in to a cookie cutter society...that's not natural. You have something unique to be, to contribute that's trying to get out!
Wow! I hope that wasn't too weird and in-your-face because, really, what do I know...unless it strikes a chord with you...
Anyway, best of luck...truly!
thanks 'me. This is proving to be a wonderful outlet.
ReplyDeleteHoping to make a difference and help others who are struggling.
Thanks for your kind words and support.